To make a long story short, my work schedule varies day by day, and the time I need to be in for work fluctuates as well. On Mondays and Fridays, I need to be in at work shortly before 11, Wednesdays around 10:00, and on Tuesdays and Thursdays I need to be at work by around 9:15 or so. This sort of schedule has been causing me a lot of problems lately, and it actually has me a bit worried about the security of my job.
For the past month or so, I have been oversleeping and being late to work (and thus missing a class I teach) about once a week. It is always the early class too, where I need to be at work by 9:15. I have tried going to bed early, but then I just lie in bed and worry that I won't wake up on time. I try sleeping with the lights on, but then I just feel even more tired in the morning. And I've tried setting more alarms, but I just sleep through them, only waking up right before my class is to start, with the dreaded phone call and the secretary wondering where the hell I am. Now, I have luckily been working this job for over three years, and have a good relations with the people there, but as we all know, at some point someone is going to have enough of my shenanigans and tell me to pack my backs and leave...at least that is my worry, because that is what I would do, if the situation was reversed and an employee was acting unreliable and irresponsible.
So I have pondered the whole situation quite a bit, and I believe it has come down to two different things going on here. #1, because there is such a deviation in the time I need to be at work, my body cannot adjust and get into a proper schedule. All of my colleagues (the local Taiwanese) have good schedules, where they have to be at work the same time every day, and besides the mental toll on remembering "Do I need to be at work at 9 today or 11?", I feel this also could be causing some of the trouble.
Secondly, sometimes when I stay up, I have been talking with my family back home, about 12 hours difference. There are some things going on back home (i.e. my mom is going through chemo treatments for cancer, and although it seems that she will be alright, you never know for sure...and she has been through so many by now, she is starting to feel weak, etc). So I am not getting the proper sleep either, just making it quite hard to make it for that morning time.
I am thinking about going in to work this afternoon and apologizing to the manager, explaining to her the situation that is going on with my family back home, and asking for forgiveness about my recent antics, in the hopes that she will be understanding and also willing to work with my bullshit for the next month or two, until the chemo treatments are finished and things settle back to how they should be. Does this seem reasonable, or would I just be making a spectacle of myself?
I really like my job, and would hate to lose it over something like this, but these past few weeks have just been brutal on me for making it there on time, all five days.