@Jay-Ray: I used to feel the same way as you, but I think that the drinking is making my skin condition worse. Also, the situation that occurred last week was really inexcusable imo, and I would give anything to take it back, if I could. It went beyond just making an ass out of myself in public with friends, rather it was on the breed of vomiting in my friend's mother's car (well the mother is also my friend), then rejecting help from my friend when she wanted to help care for me, and some more things that I really don't want to get into.
My friend (the mother) is a rich woman, and has a lot of important connections in the (small) area I live, so I really need her friendship if I want to get involved in business here later (and I do). So I work hard for 4 years, and finally start to get my break this year, and I do something stupid and jeopardize all of my progress, and also end up hurting one of my best friends here in the process. Not to mention my skin condition. So I mentally know that I need a break, and hope I can just put it into action.
Post Merge: July 27, 2015, 09:40:10 AM
Regarding drugs: I used to be of the mentality that drugs were no good, and never wanted to get involved with the stuff. Now I am of the mentality that I am a bit interested in the effects from drugs, mainly the spiritual aspects and what not. As someone that is very interested in cultures, traditional culture / religious rituals, etc, you can maybe see the reason for my change in perception, as whether we like to acknowledge it or not, the usage of such plants and herbs were often an important role in the old traditions / customs around the world.
With that said, I am also not the type of person that goes out purchasing illegal drugs, and I certainly don't want to make a habit of that type of stuff either. I imagine it could end up getting out of control quickly, and in the modern world, with the expectations we have for each other, there is a lot more to be done than just sitting on a porch somewhere tripping, while enjoying nature.
So it is a mere curiosity for me, but not a reality.